Let go of the SHIT and be HAPPY!

I'm exhausted.

I had one of those days where I felt like I was drowning. In chaos, in bills that never end, chores that I can never finish, people that I cant make happy, things that I want to do, and there's not enough time and sanity.

I gave myself permission to feel.

Being a mom is hard... being a good person is hard.

All of the things you try to do and be and no matter how good you try to be there will always be hate and judgment. The pressure is immense. I do my very best. I'm tired of struggling, I'm tired of caring what people think.

I'm ready to be successful, I'm ready to be all that I'm capable of being, and allow myself to feel, to have good days and bad.

The pressure to be perfect to balance everything can be too much some days. I've been learning that apart of the balancing act IS to have bad days. It wouldn't be reality if you were happy go lucky and you kids behaved all the time.

I feel as though that there's also this big weight on my shoulders that i'm ready to let go of... making others happy. You cant fucking do it. It will drive you CRAZY to live your life trying to keep others happy. You can never win this one, its an exhausting game we play with ourselves, when reality is that no matter how right you try to do things or how much you try to keep everyone happy, you will end up with some people who still aren't (that's not your problem its theirs) and you'll end up sacrificing your own peace.

I believe in allowing yourself to feel and hurt and yell scream and cry when you need it, to vent and let out all the crap that holds you down.

but then LET IT GO.

Move past.

Breathe.

How can we make things work better going forward to ensure our happiness?

For me I needed a day to do nothing. to relax. Then a day to sit and think and evaluate, what do I want and what do I not need?

I don't need to please others, I don't need to feel guilty because I cant do EVERYTHING.

I DO NEED to be there for my kiddos and have fun, I do need to be present, I do need time with my husband, and I do need to have time for my passions.

I feel clearer and happier since doing this, looking within, and asking myself what makes me happy?
Whats most important to me?

I urge you to do the same.

Hope all you women out there, who take on a million things know that you need breaks too, that you don't owe anyone anything, and to do what makes you happy.

Much love, Teesha